Best Saturday night ever, not really, three sober hours at the bowling alley will do that, but I got my motherfuckin new york state benefit card in the mail. Thank you New York State, CHRISTOPHE DAVIDSO is deeply honored. Still super cool, going to get some inhalers so I can get back to running! Which is also good, because I've been feeling like I've had a lot of pent up energy not getting out.
I was probably too baked to proofread this post
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Freestyle Saturday - Beat Boxing
I got to make a post about what went down last night. I met up with Josh and Ryan at a The Gunpoets show at Castaways. There were three acts, a nervous white rapper with a good voice, a solid black rapper who sampled and shouted out everything from Stevie Wonder to Mortal Kombat, and The Gunpoets. I didn't see the headliners because I was out side, where the real talent was.
I met a fancy-dressed guy who called himself Beat Dweller. I was a little drunk and I started beat boxing and he started freestyling. He was good. He was a weird dude, kinda looked like the guy from Jamiroquai , but he rapped tight and had a great voice. Before I knew it, there were five other rappers freestyling while I kept the beat, guys named stuff like Duce Wayne. I took the name Beat Police, after an animated skit I thought up in the shower before the show. It was awesome. I we threw down for the entire headliner's set, and from what I heard we didn't miss much. Really buff tattooed white guy rapping, I don't know about that. Anyway, it was awesome. It's nice to know that people respect my beatboxing, enough to holler at their friends to come spit. Josh even got down with my on the beat towards the end, it was good too because my throat was starting to get tired. Beat Dweller's boy filmed some of the freestyles, I'm going to try and get the footage from him.
Anyway, it was awesome. Totally what I wanted from the show, and it's nice to hear some of the local flavor. It was also reasuring to know I could hold my own in a cypher, not only my own but the backs of anyone willing to rhyme. We even got some cool hippie girl in the mix. Totally awesome.
I didn't proofread this post.
I met a fancy-dressed guy who called himself Beat Dweller. I was a little drunk and I started beat boxing and he started freestyling. He was good. He was a weird dude, kinda looked like the guy from Jamiroquai , but he rapped tight and had a great voice. Before I knew it, there were five other rappers freestyling while I kept the beat, guys named stuff like Duce Wayne. I took the name Beat Police, after an animated skit I thought up in the shower before the show. It was awesome. I we threw down for the entire headliner's set, and from what I heard we didn't miss much. Really buff tattooed white guy rapping, I don't know about that. Anyway, it was awesome. It's nice to know that people respect my beatboxing, enough to holler at their friends to come spit. Josh even got down with my on the beat towards the end, it was good too because my throat was starting to get tired. Beat Dweller's boy filmed some of the freestyles, I'm going to try and get the footage from him.
Anyway, it was awesome. Totally what I wanted from the show, and it's nice to hear some of the local flavor. It was also reasuring to know I could hold my own in a cypher, not only my own but the backs of anyone willing to rhyme. We even got some cool hippie girl in the mix. Totally awesome.
I didn't proofread this post.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
running
On Black Friday this year I got a pair of Asic running shoes, and they are the shit. There's some bubbly crap in the heels that makes running so much more comfortable. I talked to my sister a bit about running form.
Today I ran about 10 blocks. 3 blocks straight, last time I tried to run I could only do 2. Two weeks ago, I could barely do 1. Progress!
I was stressing out about some things and drinking Maté. I noticed it stopped raining and I just got dressed and went for a run. As soon as I got going everything just blew away. All I could think about was my body. Ah catharsis.
Now my body is sore as shit. I guess i didn't stretch enough or just not used to it, because i can barly walk around. It's pretty rad I guess, cause it means I'm gonna be huge. hoo ray.
kind of lost my focus while writing. I'm going to go work on the Moving Box Facebook Group
I did not proofread this post.
Today I ran about 10 blocks. 3 blocks straight, last time I tried to run I could only do 2. Two weeks ago, I could barely do 1. Progress!
I was stressing out about some things and drinking Maté. I noticed it stopped raining and I just got dressed and went for a run. As soon as I got going everything just blew away. All I could think about was my body. Ah catharsis.
Now my body is sore as shit. I guess i didn't stretch enough or just not used to it, because i can barly walk around. It's pretty rad I guess, cause it means I'm gonna be huge. hoo ray.
kind of lost my focus while writing. I'm going to go work on the Moving Box Facebook Group
I did not proofread this post.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
awesome
I recently reconnected with an old friend on the internet, and it's so awesome. There's a remote, emotional connection there that is really giving my strength in a time I desperately need it. God bless The Facebook.
Friday, November 28, 2008
BLACK FRIDAY
Alright, so I'm a big lady, and I love black friday. Today my Mom and I got up at 7:00AM and went to the mall in Emily's town in hartford, CT. It was not crazy (stores opened as early as 4:00AM!). It was fun, it wasn't super competitive but I got a $100 cookware for about $30, and 75% a sweater at J Crew. At about 11:00AM it started getting crazy and we left, getting lunch at a diner and taking my car to the shop. To my horror I find that it'll take $500 to fix the exaust system in my car, which has rotted out and become very loud and terrible. Driving down to Hartford was like riding in a leaf-blower. Anywhat, we got it fixed and I got some body pillows for our livingroom and running shoes (finally!) so things are good.
I miss my kitty TWEENIES!!!
Now we're watching "Love Actually", my mom, sister, Casey and big nerd brother on the computer device.
I didn't proofread this post.
I miss my kitty TWEENIES!!!
Now we're watching "Love Actually", my mom, sister, Casey and big nerd brother on the computer device.
I didn't proofread this post.
catharsis
I have trouble feeling secure when I'm by myself. I believe this has contributed to a lot of the social turmoil I've been dealing with lately. to I'm stating here, publicly, on the blag-o-tubes, that I'm going to actively start working on this. It will make me more awesome, and require less of the people around me.
Thanks to those who've helped me identify this.
Had a talk with Alex on the phone about the whole breakup and situation surrounded it. It was actually a good, I've kind of been holding my side of the story in, out of respect or whatever virtue I was using as an excuse from dealing with it. I guess I just didn't want to stirr up drama, turns out I was sturring up myself but not getting it out. But turns out Alex and I still have rapport enough to talk and get this stuff out. To be honest, I was a bit resentful that after the breakup Alex and Amalia were talking and I wasn't talking to either of them. But I feel a release right now that I haven't felt since the break-up.
I want to communicate with Amalia again, I'm not happy having her omitted from my life. When the time comes, I think it will happen. Now that I'm sure it's what I want, I am that much more certain that it will happen.
Thanks to those who've helped me identify this.
Had a talk with Alex on the phone about the whole breakup and situation surrounded it. It was actually a good, I've kind of been holding my side of the story in, out of respect or whatever virtue I was using as an excuse from dealing with it. I guess I just didn't want to stirr up drama, turns out I was sturring up myself but not getting it out. But turns out Alex and I still have rapport enough to talk and get this stuff out. To be honest, I was a bit resentful that after the breakup Alex and Amalia were talking and I wasn't talking to either of them. But I feel a release right now that I haven't felt since the break-up.
I want to communicate with Amalia again, I'm not happy having her omitted from my life. When the time comes, I think it will happen. Now that I'm sure it's what I want, I am that much more certain that it will happen.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
venting
Okay, I need to vent. I'm not sure why I chose a public medium to do so but I'm going to put myself out there. I'm going to put my concerns into an itemized list so I can stop fretting them for the time being.
I am being repeatedly disrespected at work by one person in particular.
Said person has been late four cumulative hours this week (it's tuesday).
I am trying to help that person grow, but it is proving very difficult for me. It feels like by trying to help them, the worst parts come out against me. (A wise man once described that as "the demons fighting back")
Last week I considered them my best friend. I cannot say that with confidence anymore. I do not feel like I have a best friend. Not to be emo-boo-hoo about it, but if you asked me who my best friend is, i wouldn't have an answer. actually, probably Tween.
The lone ray of light in the cold December of my days - Futurama
I have a very low tolerance for bullshit at the moment. Could be coupled from the large amount of BS i put up in my previous relationship. I think this may be contributing to conflicts, but with all the strength in me I can't seem to put up with it anymore. It seems that the only way to deal with some of this problems is to ignore them or address them. And even the simplest of issues (like being late) triggers an avalanche of excuses and rationalizations.
When I think of this person, the word that comes to mind is "despicable". It's harsh. It is not with the person them self; it's the behavior that's running on autopilot. Disrespectful, immature, dirty, escapist way of dealing with potential problems. I say potential because with a little restraint they're wouldn't even BE problems. I feel tapped so thin right now, and I'm not seeing any improvement. It's discouraging. All I notice are calls for affirmation.
I learned the proper use of a semicolon today; they're quite useful.
kay, I feel a little better. I am still pretty upset, but I think I'm going to head over to Dorreen's hosue to watch a movie with some people. I'm going to bring Tween and attempt to socialize her with other kitties. I'm also going to get a bottle of win, cause I want to drink wine tonight.
I am being repeatedly disrespected at work by one person in particular.
Said person has been late four cumulative hours this week (it's tuesday).
I am trying to help that person grow, but it is proving very difficult for me. It feels like by trying to help them, the worst parts come out against me. (A wise man once described that as "the demons fighting back")
Last week I considered them my best friend. I cannot say that with confidence anymore. I do not feel like I have a best friend. Not to be emo-boo-hoo about it, but if you asked me who my best friend is, i wouldn't have an answer. actually, probably Tween.
The lone ray of light in the cold December of my days - Futurama
I have a very low tolerance for bullshit at the moment. Could be coupled from the large amount of BS i put up in my previous relationship. I think this may be contributing to conflicts, but with all the strength in me I can't seem to put up with it anymore. It seems that the only way to deal with some of this problems is to ignore them or address them. And even the simplest of issues (like being late) triggers an avalanche of excuses and rationalizations.
When I think of this person, the word that comes to mind is "despicable". It's harsh. It is not with the person them self; it's the behavior that's running on autopilot. Disrespectful, immature, dirty, escapist way of dealing with potential problems. I say potential because with a little restraint they're wouldn't even BE problems. I feel tapped so thin right now, and I'm not seeing any improvement. It's discouraging. All I notice are calls for affirmation.
I learned the proper use of a semicolon today; they're quite useful.
kay, I feel a little better. I am still pretty upset, but I think I'm going to head over to Dorreen's hosue to watch a movie with some people. I'm going to bring Tween and attempt to socialize her with other kitties. I'm also going to get a bottle of win, cause I want to drink wine tonight.
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